Baby Shower and 3D ultrasound!

Last weekend was my baby shower and 3D ultrasound which I have been excited about for a while now. I had an absolute great time at my shower and got so many gifts for the girls. I definitely feel more prepared now for their arrival. There were a few girls there that I havent seen in a few years which was awesome to get everyone together again. We played a few baby games like the ribbon around the belly, baby bingo, and pin in the rice. Everyone seemed to enjoy the games and liked the prizes that I had picked out. I cant speak for everyone but I think it was a pretty successful party.

We also had our 3D ultrasound the same weekend. It really is amazing the technology that we have these days. The girls were very active during the scan and we got some really nice pictures. DF and his parents came with us to the appt and it was a really cool experience that we shared together. I would definitely recommend it to anyone who is in their second or third trimester. The girls were 1.10 lb and 2.02 lb and the heartbeats were right around 150 each. They look great so far! I am so happy and grateful that everything is going so great. I hope that I continue to stay lucky on the rest of this journey.

What??!!

Well, my appt yesterday went great. After not feeling the girls for 24 hours I was a nervous wreck beforehand. Little ones started moving around after I left - FINALLY! The heartbeats were 146 and 150 which were right on track. I told the doc that I havent really felt the girls in the last 24 hours and he said if that happens again to call them and schedule to come in to make sure everything is okay. But thankfully this was a false alarm because the girls are looking great. Cervix is 3.9 (4.0 is perfect he said) so these little ones have a while to go till they are ready to come out. He gave me a paper that explained at 28 weeks I have to start counting kicks and make sure that they are kicking atleast 10 times a day. It's going to be hard because sometimes I cant tell who is who!

Then he says that I am gaining too much weight.... i've gained 26 pounds so far. What do you mean im gaining too much weight - im having twins! He says that I dont want to reach 50 pds + but thats what he told me to gain in the beginning! And THEN he told me I might be able to go to 38 weeks when we originally discussed having a scheduled c-section at 36 weeks. ???? WHAT??!! I have had absolutely NO anxiety about having them because I figure a c-section will be easy. But now I have to think about waiting around for my water to break and what happens if one is breach! Oh my, this is just too much to think about. It seems like everything about delivery is different than we spoke last time and i'm starting to think he doesnt know his @ss from his elbow. To top it off he says he wants to change my due date to February 11th instead of the 9th. Ummm really.....2 days? Does it really matter? Maybe it's the hormones that are making me crazy but I was so confused after my appt. Atleast the girls are looking great. That's all I guess that matters.

Happy But Sad

Today I have been on an emotional roller coaster. Firstly, we had our 24 week appt and everything went great. The girls are getting so big and their mom is getting even bigger. They each weigh around a pound and a half and are growing rapidly right now. The last appt the babies were laying on top of one another like bunk beds but today one was breached and the other was lying vertical. So they are L shaped in my tummy :)

Sad to hear the news from a great friend of mine. She had her 5th miscarriage last week and just told me today. I am so sad for her. Especially since I am having twins and I feel bad contacting her because I dont want her to get upset. The last thing I want is for her to be hurt. She is my age, 25, and we have known each other since grade school. I cant imagine what is going through her mind right now. I have a slight idea because of my experiences with infertility but to lose 5 pregnancies I am speachless. She said her RE has told them they will need IVF if they ever plan to have children - which they dont have the thousands of dollars to do. I really really hope that they get a little miracle and are able to conceive on their own and can carry their peanut/peanuts to term. Please God if there is anything you can do for them, they are amazing people who deserve nothing but the best

It's Never Easy

I haven't had that much difficulties but have been worried sick the entire pregnancy so far. Got pregnant back in November and baby stopped developing at 9 weeks - had a D&C to remove remains. Got pregnant once again in February/March and unfortunately had another miscarriage - passed everything naturally. This pregnancy was very hard to accept because of our prior losses. You never want to forget the babies you lost nor ever replace them. Went in at 5 weeks to get HCG levels checked and they were very high so nurse thought it could be ectopic. Tried to be optomistic but it was hard. Fortunately, next HCG was raising appropriately but was still high, now they say it could be multiples. 7 week ultrasound they confirmed two sacs and two babies. We were estatic that we were having twins. The u/s tech said that one was about a week behind and they will monitor us closely to make sure he/she catches up with the other. Week 16 had major cramping and pressure pains - was advised to go to Labor and Delivery (was scared outta our minds) and turns out it was a false alarm. 18 week u/s doctor tells us that smaller baby is still about 4 days behind and it may be chromosomal abnormities. We opt out of testing but she insists that we get tested for Trisomy 21 (downs). So we do the testing and have to wait about a week for the results which is like torture - we didnt want to know but now that we did the testing we were worried. Tested negative for trisomy 21 thank goodness. 23 weeks along strong cramping comes back along with some major back pain. Doctor insists I go to the Emergency room to be checked out. Cramps went away so we opted out and everything is okay. We were already worried sick this entire pregnancy because of our history and just the little things that we've been through so far makes me believe that this will be our one and only pregnancy. I dont think I can do this all again physically, mentally and emotionally. I just cant wait until we have our healthy babies in our arms - but yet I doubt the worry for our children will ever go away.

Dear God, thank You for giving me such a beatiful life and filling it with such beautiful people. I am so very excited to meet our two little girls and couldn't be any happier. I love everything in my life and wouldn't change anything if I could. Thank You, You are amazing for giving this all to me. Amen

And we are having.........

two girls!!! We are both super excited. At first he had a terrified look on his face when they said the first was a girl but then when they said the second was a girl he couldnt stop smiling. It was the cutest thing ever!! I think he is going to be completely fine with having more girls around and I know that they will be little daddy girls. His parents were so thrilled to find out we are having their first grandaughters. His mom and aunt cried when we told them because the entire side of the family is boys!! It is so nice to finally know now what we are having. Now it finally feels real to me. It almost makes me want to cry thinking about how far we have come and everything that has happened in the past. It's so bittersweet. I had no idea what we were having at all and am still in shock. It's funny because a couple of weeks ago I bought some girl clothes that were ADORABLE and said if we have two boys than I can just keep the reciept and return them. Well now I dont need to!

One baby is still about a week behind the other which is now all of a sudden worrying the doctors. The High Risk doctor that I went to today pretty much made me take a Trisomy test to determine if either baby had Downs or not. It makes me sad that there might be something wrong with one of our miricles but regardless of the results we will love them the same. I still get worried about them to this day and honestly dont think that the worry will ever go away.

Gender ultrasound scheduled!!

I just scheduled our ultrasound where we will get to find out our babies gender. We will find out September 8th at 18 weeks along. I am so very excited!! I cant wait to start buying pink and blues and greens and purples. DF is still very worried about having 2 girls but I think it would be fine. He could still take them fishing and teach them how to play sports. I'm sure they would be the apple of his eye. Most people are thinking that we are having one of each. I think that would be perfect because we will have a little princess and a little prince. Then maybe we wont have an excuse to have any more after this. I'm not sure if I want more after all we have been through. I think I will be grateful for what we have been given and put it to a rest for now.

We have become aunts and uncles once again. DF's brothers wife gave birth to their son last Thursday on August 19th. He is up North now visiting but I had to stay behind to work. We will be up in September for a wedding so I will just visit him them. I cant believe how many people I know that are pregnant or have just had babies. No wonder why they say over 3 million babies are born a year. I just cant wait to meet ours!!

Just a few updates....

Well I still cant believe that I have made it this far, and especially with two little peanuts!! I am over the moon happy and am so excited to meet my little ones. I'm not sure if I mentioned to anyone on here yet but at my 12 week appt the doctor told me that I will have a scheduled c-section when the babies are 36 weeks gestation if I don't go into labor by then. My doc said that he has never delivered twins naturally because of all the complications that could arise and more than likely they wouldn't both the head down when I go into labor. I wont lie, I was pretty bummed when I found out I couldn't give birth to them naturally but if this is better for their safety than I'm okay with the c-section! Plus, it will be scheduled so we can have our out-of-town family come in for a few days to visit and see the little ones. So with my full term date moved up to 36 weeks this makes my Due date January 9th 2011. It's crazy to think that we are almost half way there!! I just want these little ones to stay in my belly for as long as they need as in there is the healthiest place for them. I am praying that everything goes smooth from here on out and we don't face anymore bumps in the road. I cant wait to be a mommy!!!