Ok so I haven't been on in a while so I figured I would updated on the latest and greatest. We didn't get an 8 week u/s which was literally driving me nuts and just about had a panic attack before my 9 week u/s. All the worry and stress was unnecessary because everything looked great and the babies were right on track. The smaller one even caught up to the bigger one! Now both of the heartbeats are up to 171 bpm. There is still a little difference in the size of them both but I am thinking that's because its a boy and a girl. Hey a girl can dream cant she! The u/s was done at the High Risk facility and they said that nothing looked out of the ordinary. That's great news!! I feel like a million bucks right now and love every minute/second and day of being pregnant. This is why I think God put me on this planet was to be a mother. I really don't excel at any one thing and I think that hopefully parenting will be my talent.
Don't get me wrong I am super duper excited about having the twins. Who can complain about a 2 for 1 special hehe. And maybe since it happened this way we can have 3 children like I have always wanted. DF has been persistent about only having 2 kids, end of story. A few weeks ago I had bad anxiety about the twins though. Thoughts kept running through my mind like:
"Can we afford daycare for TWO infants?"
"Is it even worth me working?"
"How do I take care of two babies at once?"
"Is DF going to help with childcare?"
We have sat down and talked about this and decided that we cannot take this for anymore than a blessing. This is what we wanted; to be parents. We were double blessed and I don't think God would put us in a situation that we couldn't handle. I am so excited to tell my friends and family the great news but we definitely want to wait until after the 1st trimester. I cant believe in 2 weeks I will already be 3 months pregnant! Wow does time fly. I am hoping to only hear good news from here on out but am cautiously keeping my guard up. Only God knows my children's fate as well as my own. I am just so very excited and cannot wait to meet my little beans in about 5 months.
Dear God, the miracle that You have given me is never forgotten. You make up a huge part of my life and one day will also be a part of my children's. Please watch over them as they grow and continue to be on this Earth. I also want to pray for the other woman who I am close to that are ttc. The ttc process is not fun and I know it's easy to lose hope quickly. Please help my friends who have just recently gotten pregnant and also watch over their little beans. I am excited to share this pregnancy journey with each and every one of them. Thank You so much for the wonderful things in my life. Amen
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