Back to the Basics

Time has seemed to fly since we first found out about our m/c on December 30th 2009. We have gone through so much and I am hoping that only the best is to come. I never forget about our angel baby that we have lost and think about them everyday. Wherever you are, your mommy loves you very much and would have done anything that she could to have kept you here with her in this world. I loved you since the moment I saw the two pink lines and I will never forget you.

Before we had found out about our m/c we never had a thought in our mind that this could happen. We were both healthy, active and young. Yet God works in mysterious ways. I felt like an outsider when I came to terms with what had just happened. I had realized at that moment I didn't know anyone else who had experienced this type of loss. Although from there on out other woman started opening up to me (even some that I've known for years!) about their past m/c and experiences. I thought I was alone and that this type of thing rarely happened but now I know that this is more common than many people think. Our doctor told us one in every four pregnancies end in miscarriage. ONE in FOUR!!! I just want to thank each and every woman who had the courage to share their m/c with me. This has been the best type of healing that I could have asked for. I feel like I have a special bond with each of these woman now. This has made them and myself stronger. Why do people feel they should be ashamed after a miscarriage? I believe that it is mostly because they feel singled out. Losing a child is not something that is included in everyday conversation and now from experience I know it is painful to talk about. You have a long list of questions about what had happened and what could have been prevented although everyone's main question is: "Why?" That is something that most of us will never get an answer to. Granted some get test results back about what had happened but the ones like me will only be left unanswered.

If we did not conceive this month than Aunt Flo should be arriving on next Saturday which I am dreading because that is the first day of our vacation. I am supposed to be relaxing on the beach with a cold drink and my man by my side, not curled up on our hotel bed with a bottle of Midol and cramps. Regardless I will be taking an Early Response Pregnancy Test on Monday to find out if I will be expecting Aunt Flo or not. I will keep you updated as always.