Results Are In and I Dont Feel Better

Considering it has been over a week I figured I had better show some "Blog Love". My Easter weekend went by quickly. I had gone down to Kentucky to visit my grandparents and many other relatives were also visiting which was nice to have us all together. Ended up going to the Horse Races with my grandfather and a few others which was interesting as I had never been before. One thing I didn't understand is why everyone gets so dressed up to go gamble. I mean the guys were in suits and the woman were in dresses and heels. So naturally I felt a little out of place wearing jeans. Other than that it was a great time despite losing. Saturday we went to an Easter Egg hunt downtown New Haven and watched my little cousin having a blast. Sunday was of course Easter dinner and it made me realize how much I love my Nana's cooking. It was a great mini vacay overall. I couldn't have asked for a better time.

Monday was back to the old grind. I knew my appointment was later in the afternoon at 3:30 and the day couldn't drag by any slower. When I had finally made it through my day I headed to my OBGYN office. This was the appointment where I got my lab results back and perhaps discovering a reason behind my miscarriages. I don't know at this point if I wanted a reason or not but when she told me there was nothing unusual and that I was completely healthy I was a bit shocked. How could a healthy persons body reject two children already? I don't know what to think. She said she could test him, refer us to Genetic Testing, or wait until my next cycle and put me on Clomid. I said we would do option #3 for now. Although when I got home I felt that after everything I had gone through and am going through that maybe he should get checked as well. That way if it comes back that he is healthy too then we wont be so scared about trying again. I don't want to keep trying and keep having m/c. I want to figure out the cause and treat it if possible. I brought it up to him and it seemed like it wasn't something he considered doing. Really?? After everything, you cannot do one thing for me and our future children? Now you see why I feel alone...