Does Doctor Know Best?

Today I had a follow up appointment with my OB. She wants me to come in regularly since being prescribed Clomid to see if we need to take a bigger approach or not. Have I ever told you how much I LOVE my new doctor? She is very aggressive and persistant about me having a baby in my arms soon. The pregnancy thing we have down, now its the carrying to term we are working on. She asked how things were going and if I wanted to continue with the Clomid. I told her that is fine but we need to fix the issue about the "dryness". So then she wrote me a prescription for Estradiol which is supposed to stimulate my estrogen and prevent dryness. She also prescribed me Prochieve which is a suppository to induce Progesterone. So now let me think about everything that I am currently talking:

Baby Aspirin- to clear blood clots if this is an issue
Prenatal Vitamins- to get my body healthy and "baby ready"
Clomid- to regulate Ovulation and releases the healthiest eggs
Estradiol- basically is Estrogen in a pill. This will help with dryness "down there"
Prochieve- Progesterone

Really? I always thought to get pregnant all you had to do was have unprotected sex one time. Boy was I ever wrong. Yes, this happens to some people, but then there are people like me who have to "try". I just don't understand life sometimes. It's frustrating and sometimes I want to just give up. But as much as I want to give up, more of me wants a healthy baby in my arms. I have decided to join a support group with other woman who have had losses. The first meeting is next Wednesday and I am kind of excited to meet others like me. For once I wont have to feel ashamed talking about it and can be completely open and honest. I hope there are woman there with success stories to life my spirits. I really need some encouragement to proceed and to not be felt sorry for. I just need to air my dirty laundry.

Dear God, I want to start by thanking you for giving Kristi her little miracle; but why did you then decide to take it away? It was her fourth pregnancy and she has yet to carry to term. Now this is her fourth miscarriage. I want to pray for her in hopes that she will be able to recover from this emotionally to begin trying again. I know You have a plan for us all but why does it have to include so much pain and misery? I really need to be closer to You right now, but it's hard because I feel You can cause me so much pain. I hope that us "infertile" can find our way out of this long dark tunnel because once we feel rescued, we are only lost again. Just please show us the light. I do want to thank you for giving Becky her BFP this month. She will be a great mother again. Give my angel babies kisses for me and tell them I love them and will never forget them. Amen